God, what are you doing? I thought I knew what it looked like for me to be obedient, and now that door is closed. I was so certain this was where you wanted me to go…and now I’m sitting here, confused and disappointed.
You have called people to go, and I am willing to go, and yet you closed this door. I am in turmoil inside, caught between knowing that you are in control and being angry that this opportunity has been taken away from me.
I know that you aren’t done with me. I know you still have plans for me. I know you have good things in store. I am confident that you are able to use me in some other way this summer…or this year. I don’t know yet what that will look like, but I know you are God and you are sovereign and you have a plan. Just because this door is closed doesn’t mean you won’t open another.
Lord, help me to trust you in this. May I see what you are doing, and what you want me to do. Give me wisdom to discern where you are leading me, Lord. Help me to think clearly and to hear your leading. Give me a willingness to go wherever you send me.
I don’t understand yet, but I know you are in control. Help me to trust and hope in you.